divorced single mom of 3 amazing kids. learning to fly again and learning to find happiness along the journey. Running, writing, laughing, friendships and family are what center me.
i sit in tears tonight, gasping for breath. feeling the weight of motherhood on my shoulders. i worry i haven’t done enough to help my children become decent humans. i worry that i have done too much, helicopter around them too often. being a mom is the hardest job i’ve ever had. it is the … More learning to let go
“you’re so hard on yourself!” “you are your worst critic!” “If only you saw yourself the way others see you!” I’ve heard versions of this about myself my entire life. And I have struggled with negative self talk. But I also wonder if simply talking realistically is simply just not acceptable for women. For example, … More Notice and name it
What is my story? Why should anyone care to read or listen to my story? I grew up in an era in the south which is no longer. Post Vietnam, post TVA and their lakes being put in. This was the 70’s. With my hippy New Yorker parents who didn’t quite mesh with or understand … More The Cabin
Memories are a funny thing. They come and make you a laugh, make you smile or take you back to that pit in your stomach or butterflies of your first kiss. Why do we remember what we remember? Why do we walk into a store and the smell of a random stranger’s perfume takes you … More Power of memories to give us strength
its the 4th which means fireworks cookouts memories of concerts in Centennial Park with my dad playing the bells of the 1812 overture. I can taste my moms fried chicken and feel the excitement in the air as my brother and I wait for fireflies to appear. Tonight, I sit alone at my backyard table … More 4th of July and letting go
i feel lost. adrift in a sea of my own making. in one moment i am grounded and solid, but in the next a wave takes me out to sea and I can’t see the shore. At 51, shouldn’t i know how to navigate the boat by now? shouldn’t it be easier? it isn’t. the … More stronger than the waves
It has been 5 days since my last race and I’m still happy. The soreness has gone away and the chafe spots have nice scabs. I ran briefly yesterday which felt good to get myself moving again. 5 days and I’m still wanting to relive this race. I want to be smiling again at mile … More Upper Miles
I have decided to become a kayak instructor. I don’t own a kayak But being a kayak instructor….how hard could it be? I could talk to loons all day! I would be outside! I could just breathe…. 3 weeks ago i ran a marathon Last sunday i ran a half marathon Today i … More Kayak Dreams
I dreamed of my dad last night. I dont’ remember the dream- just the feeling of him….the feeling of calmness he gave me. I remember the feeling that I was loved beyond belief. I remember realizing it was a dream and not wanting it to end….to have him drift away. It was 4:30 in the … More The smell of you
Dinner is bubbling on the stove and music is softly playing. I sip an icy glass of water and I smile. It has been a good day. First, I got locked out of my car but called my brother so was able to walk along my beautiful river and share the morning with him. Then, … More Ice Cream Smiles
Broken Wings Fly Again 